After term 2 holiday,
I changed really alot can.
Misschua in the past, used to sleep in class almost every lesson.
Misschua in the present, seldom sleep in class.
Because I realised everything i did in the past,
is actually so childish. .
that. . look back from now,
i really don't understand what am i doing exactly in the past.
Living for nothing. .
I do not know the purpose of life,
the purpose of living.
& also, the purpose/importance of studying.
Now, I am so happy that i have changed so much.
Through Christ. .
I have learnt alot of things.
I found the reason of living,
the purpose of life,
& of course the importance of studying.
I begin to set targets for myself,
wanting myself to do better.
& work towards my big dream.

I can say,
the me in the past. .
is super attitude.
Just like what Desmond preached about just now.
I don't have anyone in my eyes.
I am just who i want to be,
& who are anybody to control me &ask me to do something.
Just like Desmond. . xDD
okay. I am super attitude in the past.
vulgar, rude & many other bad points. .
I scold teacher, quarel with them. .
Threaten classmates, schoolmates.
Fights & quarrels. .
Having to go office everyday, i feel proud in the past.
Profile more then 10pages in a year.
Slacking when exams period.
going into relationships. .
Cut hand. .
Shout at my parents,
rude to them.
Take them as granted &do not appreciate.
Go out with friends everyday.
Make my parents worry. .
Run away from home. .
Try smoking. .
Having alot of piercing.
Lips piercing, tongue piercing. .
& alot more. .
Just so bad & immature.
In the past, i do things without thinking.
Without thinking of the consequences. .

Now, I feel so glad. .
Glad that i am grown up.
Smoking fightings rudeness disrespectful no sense of responsibilities. .
& many . .
Are acts of childishness/ immaturity.
Now, i feel that studies is important for myself.
I study for my own future & the Glory of God.
As each day past, i grow &learn. .
I've let go of my past. .
& start anew.
Because of my past, all my mistakes.
I am the me now. .
& i've learn from my mistakes. .
& have become a better person.

If i can, so can you.
Faith,
Nothing is impossible through Christ.
God can make things that are impossible, possible.
God is a good God!
(: nights.



























Hows's my drawing? haha xD

Super tiring & stressful week.
N'level is just 6days away,
that's kinda near. .
Very near. .

I did studied.
But not really that confident.
okay, stayed back everyday. .

Until 3.30pm
Not very bad though.

Went out the whole day with my beloved Twin,
TanLIYUE! :D
Loves her man!
I drew the picture we took together in POA class just now,
haha shall upload it in the next post.
xDD
we went to study at KFC,
we really did study okay!
Just that before studying,
we went to buy alot alot of tibits.
& 'smuggle' into the KFC.
HAHA! then was like. .
Laughs la . .
okayokay, stop!
we only studied for 2hours?
But in between got chit chatting la!
Cannot blame, it have been so long since i last went out with her okay!
xDD then after that we went shopping.
haha, for 1hour plus!
shopped the whole 1st floor of PARKWAY.
alot of things to shop xDD
alot of new shops.
HAHA.
Then shopped until super tired!
okayokay its getting late already.
zzz shall go & study now!
=X

Mostly Teenager! xD so, its very good. Not only that you can improve your singing skills. You can also make more friends! (:

Whole day rot at home today!
How boring. .
Furthermore, I forgotted to bring my SS book 3 back home!
I left it under my stupid table! =X
No book to study!
Actually there's, a book 4.
But! I don't like to study book 4 la =X
Nevermind, I will still study even if i don't like!
Because I have no choice, I have to!
How sad. .
HAHAHA! xD
I am like sitting on the rocking chair & waiting for things to happen can!
I am not studying, already 3days not studying already! =X
That's very bad, really very bad!
8days to my N'level,
YET i am infront of this screen almost everyday.
Almost every Hour, minute, seconds.
Of course not including the time i sleep la!
But really really cannot go on like this!
I have left with 1precious week!
& I really have to study!
I need Motivation!!!!!!!!

zzz okay. .
Now, I feel like sleeping again!
Feel like a pig-.-
sleeping whole day la.
But i smell delicious food from the kitchen!
HAHAHA xDD
But i am dieting la-.-
zzz I noticed that i am getting fatter this days.
& put on weight i suppose.
okayokay craps la!

STOP!
I am going to. .
Do. . .
NOTHING-.-
Feeling so sleepy.
YAWN. .
I think is due to over-stressed.
okay, byebye!

-.-

I am sorry my Lord for all my sin.
Oh Lord, Please forgive me.

& thankyou Jesus.
You are the Only one who are always there.
To hear my sorrows, see me cries.
Read my heart,
& always so forgiving to me.

I am always doing things without seeking You first.
& I've never think of Your feelings.
I've never ask You what must &should i do.
I am living my life on my own all this while.

Father, I want to live my life in Your way.
I need You and I want You to take control of my life,
I am willing for You to do that.
Lord Jesus, I want You to occupy the throne of my life once again.
Make me the person You want me to be.
Oh Lord, change me..
I want to be a person more like Jesus.
Sorry.

P.S: I will never believe your empty promise anymore, supposingly it is just a thoughtless remark from you. I am just so stupid having to fall for the trap the devil set, to disappoint my Dear God. I don't want to have anything to do with you. Get out of my life!




I can describe my feelings,
with 'no words'.

Crying = Laughing
Sadness = Happiness

Heart = Surface

Understand?

P.S: I don't need anyone.



11days to N'level,
12days to social studies paper!
Gotta work extra hard this 2weeks!
=X

I miss shopping & having fun!
:(

How good will it be..
If now already finished N'
HAHAHA!

Sigh, anw life's normal.
Going to school everyday!
Seriously, though i failed my prelims badly.
But its only prelim right.
It does not demoralize me can!
Its not that prelims is unimportant,
therefore i can fail & doesnt have to feel sad over it!
Indeed i am sad, but i feel that the results lies on whether I have put in enough effort.
ya, & i don't deny i didnt.
So now, I know i must really study hard
& put in more effort.
Exceed in subjects that I can actually do much much better!
& of course do well for subjects that i did not do well.
:D
So, the point is..
I MUST STUDY!

okay now..
I have to go
& take a NAP first xDD
Then study AFTER i wake up!
HAHA!

FAITH!

P.S : I am looking out for you in the crowd, my love.

Now i know why are you so confident in yourself.
& making things that are actually impossible into possible.
You are a part of my life, a small part.
which i can do with or without, feeling abit sad if without.
But after some time i will be back to normal.

You prove me right, & i prove myself wrong.
That I will.
I feel so differently like before.
Last time, I don't see the need to do anything.
& see it as something extra to do.
Now i see it differently.
Though I don't feel the need, but i HOPE there's a need.

You came at the wrong time.
& please, get away from me!
Nobody seems to get what i am trying to say right?
Only I myself do understand.

okay now, stop talking about that someone.

My results turn out like Shit.
Way below my expectations.
I've done very very badly for my Prelim.
sigh,
& why do i get to know God so late.
I might be a better person if i got to know HIM earlier in my life.
If i am not so complacent, so over-confident in myself.
I guess, everything may turn out better?
I am so disappointed in myself.

For now, my life is in a mess.
Thanks to myself.
If i were to handle my problems better,
i don't think things will turn out this way.
Blame chuaweiqi!

I am so disappointed in myself.

Oh, the devil is taking me away again.

: (

Like i say, they are all Hypocrites.
No Exception ya.

I have no Trust towards anyone's words,
one things after one had happened.
Since few years ago.
I am trying so hard,
till now.. I am still trying.
But yet, some peoples delibrately...
blahhblahhhblahhhh.

okay,
I have to say this again,
It is Infatuation.

Short-lived passion,
A feeling more than friends.
But NOT true love can!

& I really don't wish to be emotionally attached,
but somehow i am.
But but but...
who don't?!!?!
But this is not what i want,
& is not how i want it to be..

oh wth am i talking about...

whatever,
but I just feeel..
Disrespected.
: (

2 posts in a day?
kinda crazy uh!
& lame.

But i just cant help it,
something happened just now.
Which i finds it quite funny.
aiya lazy to type out specifically.

oh ya, I am happy with my life.
& I don't need any extras in my life.
I am just happy with friends & people around me.
ya & i don't want to have relationship.
Because i believe,
at this ages, relationships are not True love.
But only Infatuation.
which is Extavagant Short-lived Passion/ Admiration.

yea right,
okay I am now hoping for good results for my prelims la,
though it is just PRELIM-.-

okay, my Flu is getting worse alr.

Heavenly Father, I lift this prayer into your loving hands.
I pray for healing of my Flu.
Please heal me father.
in Jesus name i pray,
Amen.


Haha, Looking forward to Saturday man!
Prayers meeting at River walk
& followed by service.
coool.
I loves Jesus!
:DDDD

okayokay.
Feeling so restless now.
okay get to sleep alr!
Nights!


The Irritating Flu loves me too much,
doesnt bear to leave me! -.-
That's a bad thing can.

okay, yesterday was having slight fever after going SMU.
I think is because i ate too much tibits.
Then i just fall asleep immediately i reached home,
without taking my dinner.
Super Fatigued.

& ya, math paper yesterday was still okay.
not so bad i think.
sure pass but ~
i think my A1 is gone, hopefully not la.
zzzz

Today, POA paper lor.
didnt really studied.
But Huiyi taught me bank recon. few days ago.
ya it did helps abit.
(: thanks!
still, i think i will fail.
LOL.

very very very tired,
& strengthless.
Still having flu right now!!

Hope I can go for Cg later.
I am going to catch some sleep now.
Bye peoples.


Everything are beautiful for someone,
who carries happinese within.
(:


I really very sad.
:'(
Because I am kinda weak,
having Flu.
Still i went for Combined-science exam.

I am so weak that i can't really do the paper properly,
I can't think of anything.
Can't focus.
& my Eyes,
feeling so pain!
:'(

Super sad.
I anyhow do the paper,
Physics & Chem,
2hours 30mins for both paper.
I used about 1hour only can!
:'(

Very sad.
why the flu came at this time man!
I want to cry!!! :(

I must really study consistanly starting from now!
:( later going SMU,
with stella.
STUDYSTUDYSTUDY!
Hope I will do well for tml's math paper!
Aiming for A1!! :(

Bye people,
I am dying man!

How i wish, one of these is mine..

Today was super duper sad can!
Although EL paper 2 was not hard,
But Geography!!!
What i studied all never come out,
all that i didnt study came out!!
:(
Super sad,
sad until want to cry!
Now sure failed alr.

Sigh,
Now feeling super moody again.
sad sad sad sad sad~!!

Tomorrow Combined-Science,
not prepared.
But use my brain & basic knowledge,
& some lucks,
hope can pass bah!
Lazy to study & to stress myself even more alr.

Just now just came back home,
my mum started nagging,
shouting & scolding.
Omg~ i was like going to explode alr.
Over-stressed, still she dont understand!
:( how sad.

But i learn to control my temper uh!
I did not shout back,
instead i sit down & do my own things,
Let her scold all she wants.

Stresss ah, nowadays.
N'level is coming in 21 days.
ya, so i am really going to study super hard lor!
I can do very well de, i believe!

okay now. must really do something to relax myself.
Listen to music! :D

& I wants to buy a Piano!
:DDDD
aiyyyaaa rubbish,
so ex, sure cant afford de!
-.-

Bye peoples!

Stress-Level: 200%
Mood: :(

haha, we took those pictures on friday at val's house!
while waiting for our coookies.
haha! & my new hair-do in those pictures!
xDDDD lame.

anw, tomorrow am having EL paper2 & geo.
Stress-Level Decreased already xDD
to 80%
Because was Mugging yesterday night,
& finished 1 chapter.
ya, now..
am going to have my lunch
& start mugging again.
I wanna do well for my papers!
& I believe i can!
:DDD


Mood: Undescribable.








Early in the morning, woke up.
& prepared for MOVIE!
"SECRETS"
Quite nice la, touching.
& the couple very sweet.
Especially JAY, super cute &handsome!
:DDD

After that went for service!
:DD so excited.
& ya,
HaPPY BIRTHDAY TO,
Brother MJ & Harvind :DD
MJ is really a very nice person ya!
:DD haha.

okayokay.
today's service was still okay.
but like don't really have the moood to listen to what the pastor was saying.
Today was Dr A.R Bernard.
ya. So i was like the whole session,
drawing & writing down geography thingy.
& worst doze off.
LOL.
& then fellowshipping.
thinking of an MTV for MJ.
haaaaa xDD
After that 9pm.
they went to eat at Changi Airport,
but i went home.
Because like no point can?
I am broke, left with $0.70
haaaa, but this doesnt really matters.
the problem is, I dont wanna let my dad worry.
& dont want him to be alone ya.
because this whole weeek almost everyday i am out,
until very late then come home.
(: daddy works very hard for the family.

hahaaa,
ya as i mentioned i am broke.
I have got so-called " financial blessing"
of a few dollars -.-
HAHA, better than nothing ya.

okay, now i think its time for me to go & bath.
Then study & sleeeeepppp.
xDDD Looking forward to Thursday & Saturday.
Thursday: Cg
Saturday: Service! :D

& last thing is,
am really very thankful toward this person,
name Jesus.
He understands me,
He grant me with whatever I hope for.
& bless me, save me, change me.
I cannot imagine my life without Him.
I love you, Jesus.

Okay, bye peoples.
A veryyy GOOOD-nights!
:DDD


Stress-Level: 99.99%
Mood: (:

Am back home from Val's bigbig nicenice house :D
Her maid really so super good can!
Val: you are so xingfu! :D haha!

okay. was there since afternoon to make coookies.
while sw sam ela & val was playing mahjong lor.
haha, yue xin & me
bakes coookies in the kitchen.
we took 5 hours ++ to bake all the coookies.
haha, & left some for them.
Val's brother took some too, & asked for more.
Means what? nice right!
haha, asked him :"how's the cookies?"
he replied with an super encouraging answer
he says " Veryyyy nicceeee!"
hahah with a "GOOOOD" pose.
haha! xDD but really, nice can!

Tired also.
we toook some pictures while waiting for the cookies tooo.
as her house is really super big for us to run here &there.
& to do some stupid pose, things..
whatever..
haha, like emo pictures-.-
hhahahahahahah!!
we are lame.
but fun la.
(: loves!

Thats the end for today.
lame lame lame.
Loooking forward for tomorrow's service(:
Nights Human!

Moood: (:

AmazingRace; Singapore Edition today! :D
super tiring but yet super fun!
had a fall just now :(
pain!!
but nevermind, i am strong!
wahaha ~
ya. was in the same team with
yixuan; huiyi; zhiyan; rayson; yixiang; zhenhui!
Sorry yixuan :(
Though i don't really know what happened,
but i know its something related to the team!

But overall the day was very fun can!
I love God.
From the day since I came to know this Great someone, Jesus.
My life become meaningful & happy!
:DDD I am looking forward to this saturday!
Service! & maybe before that, MOVIE!
ya. that's all.

& tomorrow, meeting my basketball friends!
It have been such a long time since i go out with them.
yay! tomorrow, going valerie's bigbig &nicenice house!
To play mahjong & bake nicenice cookies! :D
but have to go home early i think.
wooohhooooo ~
my life is so great lor!
Thanks Jesus!
& I am really so in love with Jesus,
For whatever He have done for me &my life.
& Blessing me.
Millions Thanks!
:DDDDDD

Today didnt went to school,
because half-day only.
So i be a pig at home until 11plus.
Then wake up to prepare to meet MEIMEI!
Finally can meet her man!
we meet 1pm, but in the end become 1plus xDD
Nevermind, today we have a fun day!
went bugis, anyhow shop shop lor.
saw those skirts in ZIMPLE!
Super nice can!
but quite EX..
Next time then go. haha!
we saw XY & elaine there too
ya. then after that went cityhall.
Marina first, then raffles.
hahaha.
after that walked to cathay.
on the way, saw sandy(:
she very pretty.

after that shop around dhoby ghaut lor.
until 8plus-.-
Super duper tired.
me & meimei both bought a TOP.
:D quite cheap la.

walk until leg going to break ah!
But fun can :D
we took some pictures also!
Later then i upload,
after meimei send me :D

& I AM BROKE!

Mood : : ( :




Today the First prelim exams for N.
English is quite okay, for compo.
Section B, so sad can.
Never can i expect that what teacher just taught us to come out.
sad sad saddd, I don't know the format.
:(

For SS, even sadd can!
SBQ- questions were easy but hard to express.
don't know how to write out!
but still okay la.
For SEQ, die already.
I rushed last minute last night,
going through 2chapters.
1 of the questions which came out was what i studied!
Happy uh, I laughed when i saw that questions!
BUT ~!!!!!
saddddd,
I just browse through the chapter can!
can only remember part of the chapter.
super super sadd la!
If i were to study into it, I can answer those EASY questions lor!
:(
Now i think i might fail, but not so badly la.
Or maybe i passed by luck?
Border line? LOL
So sad la ~

Sigh, tomorrow
chinese paper 1 & 2.
Going to sleep early now!
Nights Human,

Love Jesus :D


Mood: =/

Always ended up, rushing at the last minute.
Am now busy studying 4chapters of social studies in 1day-.-
Already studied 1 & a half chapter,
2 &half more to go.
LOL xD

Today woke up, 3pm.
Its quite normal for me, as a pig.
-.- still feeling sleepy though.
But no choice have to study,
as Prelim for ss is just TOMORROW!

Hope my dream will come true, as i am putting in effort.
I've still got 1year ++ to work hard,
& to fulfil my dreams.
xDDD Kambatei!


Mood: (:

Today early in the morning woke up,
prepare & went for cg.
(: I love, very fun!

After that, went for Festival of Praise at night.
Although quite High &fun,
But I still enjoy more at CHC! :D
Today is a tired day la.
Errr, ya nothing much to say.
Anw, alot of thanks to "YONGYE" la
For bringing me to CHC.
:D Know who is YONGYE?
John's chinese name! xDD waha ~
so cute xDD the name, not the person-.-
wahaha ~ I feel happier after i go to church (:
That's good that's goood.
& ya, YONGYE i think you will never get the MOST LOVING award.
xDDD you aren't loving at all!!

Shall go & study awhile, then rest alr.
Moday having PRELIM.
(:
Love Jesus!


P.S : How disappointing, today.























(: I loves taking picture~!! xDD

Mood: : ( :

Queued for Donut Factory just now.
From 4pm to 6plus =X
haha, the donuts not very nice though-.-
Nvrm, wanted to try their donuts always.
Now finally got chance can.
haha, then treat my cell too(:

Almost all chocolate one,
then i ate 2 as my dinner -..-
Drank a cup of chocolate.
Ate some chocolates.
Super sweet can.

Very full, i came home &vomit.
The whole toilet is full of chocolate lor.
Everything I vomited out is chocolate.
Feel better after vomiting everything out.
:D

Just online MSN only,
got a "BHB" person talking to me.
Ask me lame questions,
& tell me things that i have no interest in.
gosh~
Ask me whether I got bf?
I say no, then told me he got chance-.-
I say no tooo.
He asked why, I say he still young-.-
Then he say he is taller than me.
How immature.
Then I make it very obvious that i dont really wants to talk with him,
by replying by a word in every msg.
But still, he keep talking to me-.-
Still tell me something kinda funny la,
He says" Be honest, in my school got many people likes me, but i dont like them"
Gosh~ Is there anything to do with me?
-.- Nvrm.
LOL.

Nowadays, alot of funny peoples around.
xDD

I Love Jesus! :D

A
Anna


B
Boo
Belle


C
Celine
Clarissa
Candice
Charlene
Cyrus


D


E
Elene
Engteck


F



G
Germs
Grace


H
Huiyu
Huiyi
Huiwen


I


J
Jiexin
Joyce
Jingying
Jiahui
Jaslyn
Janyssa
Joanna
John


K
Kenneth
Kimberly


L
Liyue
Liangzi
Leewee
Linda


M
Minqi
MS QUEK


N
Natalie
N363


O


P
Papaya


Q
Qirui


R
Rachel


S
Singhong
Steffi
Shanice
Shane
Saiful
Sheila
Stella
Shiya


T
Teriyaki


U


V
Valerie
Vincent Dong
Vincent


W
Weisan
Weiping
Weihoe
Weihao


X
Xiuli


Y
Yiling
Yinjie
Yimin
Yuting
Yvonne


Z
Zhiyan
Zhihui
Zhongxi


the end. .